![]() ![]() My 10 yr old had nightmares and offered to give me his cervix since it doesn't have cancer (ha ha!). ![]() He returned to normal immediately following my last PET scan. He had issues in school during my treatments. After that he distanced himself and refused to acknowledge the word cancer. We both were bawling and he just hugged me forever. He asked if I was going to die and I said I hope not for a very long time. My 11 yr old was hardest I sat on his bed and told him a little less sugar-coated version than I told my youngest. I sat him down, explained a very sugar-coated version and he was incredibly sweet throughout everything. I knew my 6 yr old would truly understand. My hardest were my boys - 11 years and 6 years at the time. I told a few close friends early and the rest as my treatment began on Facebook. I was barely holding it together hearing them fight tears was too difficult. After each of their reactions, I asked my parents to tell everyone else in my family. I called the rest of my immediate family - my dad, sisters, and brother. His oldest daughter (my stepdaughter) had ALL (acute lymphoblastic leukemia) at age 3 and it brought up a lot of new and old emotions with him. My husband was with me and was insanely supportive. My head was spinning so fast, I texted her saying "it's cancer, call when done." I felt awful after the fact I let my mother know that way. Telling my family and friends: My mom kept texting me during the initial diagnosis. I never let it show during the day, but at night I would break down and just cry myself to sleep. I was emotionally a mess and physically tired. The cards were finally placed right for us to try for a baby in 2016. How could they miss this? Why me? I was depressed and mourned the fact I would never have the daughter I was hoping for. ![]() I even asked exactly one year before if it was cervical cancer. I had done everything right, regular Paps, immediately at the doctor when issues began. How I felt after diagnosis: Initially, I was in complete denial. On top of the cancer, I had a massive cyst located on my left ovary. The following week, my PET scan revealed it was significantly worse than originally thought. Two weeks after my 31st birthday, I was told I had the very early stages of cervical cancer. The issues continued to worsen along with my pain. I was at the doctor monthly during that time, getting numerous "could be. I wasn't constantly tired or bleeding nonstop. I was active, extremely involved in my boys' school activities and after school activities. Prior to that I was healthy, no medical issues besides a messed up tendon in my wrist. How my story begins: A year and half before my diagnosis, I was in pain and confused about what was wrong with me. ![]()
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